Face Down - Human

The things you tried to make me believe in
To live, give, love and forgive

I'm trying...

Never painless, emotional emptiness
I always keep raping myself this way
Just darkness, I'm building myself a mountain of grief
I'm left by myself
Noose of guilt around my neck
Will there be someone here to listen?
Self destructive, or call it what you want
Self deception, I do it time and time again

True denial, Am I suicidal?
As my pain mounts up
I really can't tell anymore
Now I am
I'm left by myself
Fed up by thoughts