Jedi Mind Tricks - Black Winter Day

Torn apart now
I cannot have a strong relation
Confusion, of your related
Torn apart now
These are the choices we made
Do I follow or walk away

(verse 1)
Yeah, most of my adult life I've been torn into two
If you love me, then I love you and this song is for you
It's tight hard when you know what you said
And your shorty seein' you as an emotional wreck The closer I get, it's like the farther I feel
And my heart has turned into this heavy armor and steel
It's hard to be real, hard to listen to the dumb shit
And I take a lot of pills 'cause it numbs shit
I wish I had another path to follow
Wish that I could be a man and learn to pass the bottle
A graphic novel, my future a box or an urn
Havin' dreams about death, but I'm not that concerned
And I'm diseased, through the seasons they turn
Watchin' leaves from the trees turn diseased and they burn
I'm eager to learn, but I'm holdin' my breath
And everyday alive is just another closer to death