I Wont forget the day that
that i came to
and i started thinking that theres more
than just perfect prom queeens and silver spoons
and all i ever wanted
was someone
to knock me back to
the bliss of ignorance
cause i feel like running head first into traffic
and so i'm here to say
that thoughts in bed with pain
i wont forget the day that
that i found god
in a kitchen knife now and on my arm
so paint the pail white floor with
with my red life
and tell myself this pain is
the pain I love
as i swallow the pills happiness
and you watch me fall like
new york in an earthquake
and so i'm here to say
that thoughts in bed with pain
i stand outside my pretty house
i light a match to start the fire
i called the cops to let em know
it's 22 walthery ave
i thought i wanted this
I thought I wanted this
(I'M HERE TO SAY)
i said i wanted some more attention
i thought i wanted a story ending
(I love the pain, I hate the pain)
I just give in
(I love the pain, I hate the pain)
i think the truth is i'm scared
i think that i'm just scared to live
I think that the truth is I`m scared
i think that the truth is
i'm everything that i hate