Sick Shift - Pretend

There are times when I find myself lying awake
With no reason except to miss you
I want to hold you in my arms now just like a child
But it hurts too much to care
All that I want is for you to kiss me and say
Everything is fine
But now I hang my head cuz you're not mine
Why do I pretend that I'm over you?
Why do I pretend we're just friends?
Why do I pretend that I don't care no more?
Cuz deep inside these feelings for you will never end

There are times when you find yourself lying awake
With no reason except to hate me Looking back now it seems like it was
Too good to be true
How could it be such a good thing has passed?
Well, the only one I blame is me
But back then I was much too dumb to see

I was young an foolish, an insecure wreck
Didn't know what I wanted, I was incorrect
Concealing my feelings and I don't know why
But I don't want to let you go
I never want to hear you say goodbye

You don't know how I feel
And I can't pretend it's not real